I delight in acting.

We live in a reactionary world. Someone sees something on facebook, a news headline, a misleading blog title, a edited picture, a moment of weakness or short-sightedness of someone forever etched on the internet open where then everyone can react and respond, spout out their opinion and make judgements.

The world is so different than the world of my childhood. Its more complicated. Its so easy to compare yourself with others because their life or at least one version of it is right there on your computer, on your phone, on multiple apps and websites. Its complicated because its too easy to judge, too easy to react to something that we don't know anything about.

I'm realizing that in order to be more happy, I need to consume less. Consume less media, less opinions of others. I'm a major information collector. I love to hear opinions, listen to experiences, but I feel like while it seems like you get that in social media, really you get a snapshot in time of someones thought, just like you're getting from me now. But in reality, something I wrote yesterday, I could have a completely different opinion about today. And something I wrote a few years ago, I've gained some perspective about it. While I may fundamentally feel the same, I may have had additional insights due to additional experiences.

Today, a new statement came out from the church. While the statement is new, the doctrine it supports is not. In my morning facebook browsing, I saw a lot of reactionary opinions of people I love dearly. While I respect their opinions, I immediately recognized the need to get informed for myself and formulate my own opinion. As I did so, I felt so immensely settled, so peaceful. I delighted in acting and not just reacting. Even as I turned to KSL and read their headline, I thought...that's a misleading title that encourages people to react...hopefully they act by actually reading the story and seeking to understand.

I believe that it is God's intent that mortality be a time for us to learn to act. He wants us to remember him, to remember his plan, to remember why we are really here and what this mortal experience is really about. He wants to help us learn to focus and to see what is truly important and how God truly has a plan for all his children. It's an eternal  plan though. If we are constantly reacting without figuring out how things tie in to the fundamental eternal truths, then we sell ourselves short. If we are constantly trying to fit in, find our place, be a part of a crowd, then we are missing out on our most essential identity as a child of God.

Tonight, as I drove home from the temple, these words came to mind...

I am a child of God. And so my needs are great. 
Help me to understand His words, before it grows too late.
I know that He will help us understand his words if we ask.

What the message of Jesus Christ means to me?

Like i previously mentioned, I had a commenter ask about what exactly the message of Jesus Christ is. That question has been so overwhelming because its so broad and beautiful, but I can tell you what it means to me.

The message of Jesus Christ can be summed somewhat summarized by the first 4 articles of faith Articles of Faith:

1. We believe in God, the Eternal Father, and in His Son, Jesus Christ, and in the Holy Ghost.

2. We believe that men will be punished for their own sins, and not for Adam’s transgression.

3. We believe that through the Atonement of Christ, all mankind may be saved, by obedience to the laws and ordinances of the Gospel.

4. We believe that the first principles and ordinances of the Gospel are: first, Faith in the Lord Jesus Christ; second, Repentance; third, Baptism by immersion for the remission of sins; fourth, Laying on of hands for the gift of the Holy Ghost.

The message of Jesus Christ is that there is a plan that was decreed long before the worlds were created where our Heavenly Father, presented a plan for all his children. This plan is known as the Plan of Salvation or the Plan of Happiness. Jesus Christ, the firstborn of the Father and Only Begotten was chosen to be our Savior and our Redeemer.

And now to quote from Preach My Gospel (Chapter 2, Lesson 2, The Plan of Salvation):

We will all suffer physical death, but Jesus Christ overcame the obstacle of physical death for us. When He died on the cross, His spirit became separated from His body. On the third day, His spirit and His body were reunited eternally, never to be separated again. He appeared to many people, showing them that He had an immortal body of flesh and bone. The reuniting of body and spirit is called resurrection and is a gift promised to each of us. Because of the Resurrection of Jesus Christ, we will all be resurrected regardless of whether we have done good or evil in this life. We will have a perfect, immortal body of flesh and bones that will never again be subject to disease, pain, or death. The resurrection makes it possible to return to God’s presence to be judged but does not guarantee that we will be able to live in His presence. To receive that blessing, we must also be cleansed from sin.

God sent His Beloved Son, Jesus Christ, to overcome the obstacle of sin in addition to the obstacle of physical death. We are not responsible for the Fall of Adam and Eve, but we are responsible for our own sins. God cannot look on sin with any degree of allowance, and sin prevents us from living in His presence. Only through the Savior’s grace and mercy can we become clean from sin so that we can live with God again. This is possible through exercising faith in Jesus Christ, repenting, being baptized, receiving the gift of the Holy Ghost, and enduring to the end.

To fulfill the plan of salvation, Christ paid the penalty for our sins. He alone was able to do that. He was called and prepared in pre-earth life. He was the literal Son of God in the flesh. He was sinless and completely obedient to His Father. Though tempted, He never gave in to temptation. When the Father asked His Beloved Son to pay the price of the world’s sins, Jesus was prepared and willing. The Atonement included His suffering in the Garden of Gethsemane and His suffering and death on the cross, and it ended with His Resurrection. Though He suffered beyond comprehension—so much so that He bled from every pore and asked whether it were possible that this burden be lifted from Him—He submitted to the Father’s will in a supreme expression of love for His Father and for us. This triumph of Jesus Christ over spiritual death by His suffering and over physical death by His Resurrection is called the Atonement.

Christ promises to forgive our sins on the condition that we accept Him by exercising faith in Him, repenting, receiving baptism by immersion, and the laying on of hands for the gift of the Holy Ghost, and striving faithfully to keep His commandments to the end of our lives. Through continuing repentance, we may obtain forgiveness and be cleansed of our sins by the power of the Holy Ghost. We are relieved of the burden of guilt and shame, and through Jesus Christ we become worthy to return to the presence of God.

As we rely on the Atonement of Jesus Christ, He can help us endure our trials, sicknesses, and pain. We can be filled with joy, peace, and consolation. All that is unfair about life can be made right through the Atonement of Jesus Christ.

In paying the penalty for our sins, Jesus did not, however, eliminate our personal responsibility. We must show that we accept Him and that we will follow His commandments. Only through the gift of the Atonement can we return to live with God.

I love that second to last paragraph when it states, "All that is unfair about life can be made right through the Atonement of Jesus Christ." I think that is the central message. As children of a loving Heavenly Father, he wants us to know that there is a plan that not only helps us here in mortality but also in eternity. He wants us to know that he has provided a way for us to return back to him, back home. He wants us to know that this gift of the Atonement is here for each of us to utilize in our lives so that things can be made right. In the four gospel writings in the New Testament of Matthew, Mark, Luke and John and in the writings of the prophets in the Book of Mormon who wrote of Christ appearing to the people in the Americas, I never cease to be amazed by just how many times Christ invites Come unto Me. (My favorite Come unto Christ scripture can be found here: 3 Nephi 9: 13-15)

And not just Come unto Me in your good times or in the times when life is good, but Come unto Me with your burdens, with your weakness, with the things that are hard, with the things you don't understand, with your pain, your sickness and your infirmity.

Christ invites us to Come to Him, to learn of Him, to be healed through His Atonement.

I love the way that Elder Jeffery R. Holland puts it:

It seems clear that the essence of our duty and the fundamental requirement of our mortal life is captured in these brief phrases from any number of scenes in the Savior’s mortal ministry. He is saying to us, “Trust me, learn of me, do what I do. Then, when you walk where I am going,” He says, “we can talk about where you are going, and the problems you face and the troubles you have. If you will follow me, I will lead you out of darkness,” He promises. “I will give you answers to your prayers. I will give you rest to your souls.”

My beloved friends, I know of no other way for us to succeed or to be safe amid life’s many pitfalls and problems. I know of no other way for us to carry our burdens or find what Jacob in the Book of Mormon called “that happiness which is prepared for the saints.”⁶

So how does one “come unto Christ” in response to this constant invitation? The scriptures give scores of examples and avenues. You are well acquainted with the most basic ones. The easiest and the earliest comes simply with the desire of our heart, the most basic form of faith that we know. “If ye can no more than desire to believe,” Alma says, exercising just “a particle of faith,” giving even a small place for the promises of God to find a home—that is enough to begin.⁷ Just believing, just having a “molecule” of faith—simply hoping for things which are not yet seen in our lives, but which are nevertheless truly there to be bestowed⁸—that simple step, when focused on the Lord Jesus Christ, has ever been and always will be the first principle of His eternal gospel, the first step out of despair.

And so, the message of Jesus Christ means to me to come, come and learn of him, come and be healed by him. Come and learn of his commandments so your life can be filled with peace, joy and happiness. Come and learn that his gospel has been restored to the earth today, that there are prophets on the earth leading and guiding the Lord's true church and that God still speaks to man today.

I know that as we learn of Him in any small way and express our desire to learn more of Him that he will send the Spirit of the Holy Ghost to testify to our souls that He lives and that The Plan of Salvation is the Plan for all of our Heavenly Father's children. We can pray to know of these things for ourselves. That is how I have come to know what I know and for me, it has made all the difference.

Please see: http://mormon.org/beliefs/jesus-christ for further information
Please contact me with any further questions by leaving a comment or emailing me under the email in my profile.

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broken things to mend, elder jeffery r. holland
the atonement can secure your peace and happiness, elder richard g. scott
where is the pavilion, president henry b. eyring
missionary work and the atonement, elder jeffery r. holland
the atonement can clean, reclaim and sanctify our lives, elder shayne m. bowen
*mormon message

how much can one heart take?

joseph and emma statue

temple square, salt lake city, utah

fall 2010

A few Sundays ago, I had the opportunity to teach sunday school. Part of the plan was to discuss how Joseph Smith was prepared to receive and translate the gold plates to what we now know and read as The Book of Mormon: Another Testament of Jesus Christ. The week prior we had also discussed how Joseph was prepared in his youth to be the Prophet of the Restoration.

I have a testimony of the fact that God has a history of preparing prophets in their youth to be great leaders. I think that Heavenly Father prepares all each of us in our youth for the things that will come in our lives; I only wonder how many there are that don't heed that call or respond to that preparation. Needless to say, this got me to thinking of other preparations.

For example, how was Emma Smith prepared to be the wife of a Prophet? I'm sure she was; although I just don't know that much about her life to be honest. To endure every measure of pain and heartache she endured, she was surely fit for the task although at times I'm sure she didn't think so. Certainly, my heart aches every time I think of the worry, stress, heartache and heartbreak she endured and did so with faith.

Where am I going with this? Well I just wonder if we see or try to see how God prepares us for things in our lives? Do we recognize that we have been prepared when call/s come? When trials come? When the unexpected happens? Can we look back on our lives and find something and say, I'm so grateful for that experience, or that experience really taught me this principle that I really need right now.

The life course looks different for each one of us but one thing is sure, God, our loving Heavenly Father has a plan for all his children. You and I included.  So then certainly he must prepare us for what he knows lies in our path. The trick is recognizing those experience, recognizing those attributes we've had the opportunity to develop, and those gifts and knowledge with which you have been blessed with to help you along the way.

How much can one heart take? I certainly don't know. But I know He will be there to lighten any load that is placed upon us. He's told us that.

As a friend of mine once told me in a time personal crisis, isn't it a blessing that Heavenly Father has told us that he won't give us more than we can handle? I had never thought of it like that before. But there was such clarity in that statement. God won't give us anything more than we can handle. He knows that and he could have just assumed that we should know that too by virtue of us being his children whom he loves. But no, he told us he shared with us and he has illustrated in the scriptures time and time again how he lives up to this principle.

That is a blessing.

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he heals the heavy laden, elder dallin h. oaks, october 2006
the atonement covers all pain, elder kent richards, april 2011
never had an ordinary day-love
matthew 11:28
john 16:33
alma 7:11
mosiah 24:14--my favorite illustration that God is with us in our trials and that he will lighten our load
1 corinthians 10:13

I delight in Grad School Graduation.

I posted this same collection (close) on facebook but I had to post it here because well...this blog will outlive my facebook and this is the space I can give a little more commentary.

This graduation was a really big deal to me.  It doesn't even seem quite real yet.  You see while education has always been so important to me, I never dreamed of going to grad school.  It wasn't in my plans.  But when I chose the major of Speech-Language Pathology I knew grad school was a must so...I didn't question because I was determined I had chosen the very best profession ever.  So many miracles have come into play to get me to this point--from acceptance to graduate school, surviving each semester and finally graduation.  

My biggest cheerleader--literally!

The most supportive parents in the world.

Mary and I--leading out the grad students in the College of Health--yay CSD!

All the CSD grads!

That's me...with my pretend diploma.  The real one has yet to arrive.  But its on its way!

The graduating class plus Dr. Wambaugh and Dr. Chapman.

So happy!  Those are all genuine happy faces--can't you tell!

Mary said it best: "From undergrad to missions to grad school...WE DID IT"

We could probably say I owe my degree to her because without her study assistance, best friend-ed-ness, listening ear, gym buddy-ness, temple buddy-ness, etc. etc...my degree would not be possible.

Thank you!

Great friends Shaun, me, Mary, Dani and Meredith

Dad and I--both U Masters Graduates

So happy together.  I look at this picture and think..wow I look like my mother.  Good thing that is a good thing!  :)  And of course, Christin would hope I would say that she and I look like twins!

The family sans Craig

Can we just appreciate/love Christin for the look she's giving me.  Honestly, for all the love she gives me...I just feel so blessed to have her as my sister. 

Mary's Dad and my Grandpa discussing their old times out at ATK/Mary's Dad reminding my Grandpa of how he gave him his first engineering job out at ATK.  What are the chances.

Mary and her sweet sister Sarah.  We are both blessed in terms of awesome sisters!

The Sister's picture!

Oh cheese.

A great candid shot of my Dad by Christin.  She's an awesome photographer...no really!

Me and the Thomas Family--they adopted me in as part of their family and took such good care of me.  They shared Mary with me for oh 2 years and I'm so grateful!  Grateful for their welcomingness (not a real word but go with the idea), the feeling in the home, the never-ending love in their hearts and the study snacks and meals.

So glad my Grandparents could come celebrate.  I appreciate their support and love.

Somehow, the only picture I have of me wearing my hood...well properly.

Mary's idea to do it old-school.  

This one is probably my favorite!

Dreaming of the rest of our lives...what comes next...

Who knows...we'll just enjoy where we're at!

"Biggest Fan EF-FER"

"My sweet sis"

Let the party begin...

Because I love any reason to celebrate

And because my graduation was a pretty good reason to celebrate

We had a party!

Check out the amazing signs Christin's art teacher and her daughter made.  Aren't they amazing!  I love love love love love them!  They stayed up 3 days?!?  I hated to take them down!

Entrance to the backyard--it looks way more enchanting than it actually is...  ha ha ha!

Check out the variegated plates!

Hamburgers, hotdogs, and elk brats...surprisingly most of the brats got eaten--not by me.  That part's not surprising.

In for another day of celebrating...

Dear friend Heather who is embarking on becoming a Master too.  You can do it!

Christin and cute cousin Cooper.  So happy he and Heather could stop by!

My fantastic neighbors the Anderson's and my sweet Aunt Bonnie

Donna, Mom and Heather checking out the food spread.

The "Houdad's" and the Hortons and my Dad

She's too cute.

My second family--the Allen's and subsequently the Kropfs.  So grateful for the "Clifford's" for being friends all these years!

My dearest and probably longest time best friend Carly

Too cute right?  Cooper was about to leave and he said...uhm...do you think I could actually eat one of those cupcakes?  

Dad prepping the 'roasting' portion of the evening.

Craig and Christin helping to calm Pen and Scoobs aka the laughing hyena 

This is what happens when you tease Clifford...he gets you back!

New favorite family picture--thank you Natalie (who is also to credit for all the BBQ photography)

Speaking of which--Natalie--the one who inspired this little shin-dig in the first place as she reminded me a few months ago that I should have a party and invite her when I graduate.  Done and done.  We're both master's you see and have really done this whole school thing together.  Although we never attended the same university, we made plenty of ways to keep in touch through it all--sunday night phone calls which eventually turned into random night/afternoon/or morning chats, g-chat (not pink) and email chains.  We did it!!!  

JD (Nat's husband and my good friend since high school) and Christin--I must say I love this picture of both of them, such natural happy smiles!

Cousins!  This part was extra special--Breanne, me, Sarah, Christin and Rachel.  We're hardly ever all together--okay it happens next to never.  So it made it extra special that we were all in the same place at the same time, even if it was just for a few minutes!  I'm afraid the only one who came and didn't get a picture was Mark, Breanne's fiance, sorry!  I'm so grateful that Sarah and Rachel stopped by on their way back north--I wish you lived closer!  

Graduation would not have been possible without all the people in these pictures and so many more.  I feel so abundantly blessed to have the best friends and family in the world.

I am grateful for a loving Heavenly Father in whom I can always trust.  He keeps his promises and always provides a way.  He reminds me I can do hard things.  He gave me the best family in the world--the best family for me!  They are my motivation, my perspective and my support.  I am grateful for parents who believe in education and who let me live my dreams.  I'm grateful for the trust my parents have always had in me to make the right choices and to do good.  I am grateful for the best siblings who know exactly when I need hugs!

I am grateful for good friends who put up with all the excuses of reasons I couldn't play or get together. I'm grateful to have friends who believe in the value of education and didn't give up on me or get offended when I didn't return their phone calls in a timely manner or when I couldn't get together.  Let's please get together soon!

I am grateful for fantastic supervisors who knew I had it in me and gave me wings to fly.  In whom I have found not just amazing mentors but amazing friendship.  Thank you will never do my gratitude to you justice.

I am grateful for all the patients and clients I have been able to meet and work with in so many places--from the clinic at the U to the Children's Center, to McKay-Dee Hospital, Stewart Rehab and North Ogden Elementary.  I honestly treasure the lessons you've taught me and always will.  I wish I could tell you all the stories that mean the most to me, but most of those experiences will be documented on ly in my heart.  I find that experiences in life are no coincidence and our meeting was such a blessing.  Thank you for letting me learn along with you and your continued patience and kindness along the way.

truly blessed and truly grateful.
thanks again!