what a week. i think i say that close to every week but this week, really...it has been an incredible week. i've had the opportunity do new things, experience a day in the ogden itinerant clinic for children with special health care needs, go to dinner at a fancy place downtown enjoying a three-course meal for $15, roam trader joe's in my own state of ut, present on the research i've been working on all academic year and complete a year of urlend-ae where a bunch of strangers and colleagues have become dear friends, mentors as well as colleagues. i attended institute where the spirit was so distinct it was almost tangible. i participated in the apraxia walk and enjoyed 'sister time' with my dear sister who kept reminding me for the 24 hours prior that 'she was free' and that 'she had no plans.' (where did she learn to drop such good hints?) i was the first one to arrive to do initiatory at the temple saturday am. had a much needed conversation with the other half of my grad school duo which i du-oh-not-know what i would do without. wrote a letter of recommendation for someone, that's a first! got an awesome package in the mail, went on an am and pm walk, and learned more about the law of consecration (thank you fill-in sunday school teaching experiences...my unofficial calling, i swear. (and i love).
i appreciate the opportunity to mind dump all the delights at the end of each week as my paper journal seems to be much more filled with things i'm worried or anxious about, things i do not yet know or understand and general complaints of the day (e.g., the computer crashed after an hour of working on a report which was unrecoverable, i had a headache, i went three days without any diet coke and have doubled, tripled and possibly quadrupled my water intake since then, i have to work at a different clinic because i don't yet have my ccc's, it's cold...), essentially its full of things that if people were to look at it, they'd say...wow...random and boring. but here, i really really try to see the good, because there is so so much good. i've been blessed with so many great opportunities and so many great people who influence my life for good.
right now, i have the great opportunity to pray for some really amazing people. there was a time at the very very beginning of the year when i remember distinctly thinking...wow, everyone close to me seems to be doing pretty good, nothing major among my close friends and family. my how that has changed since that time. although few of those changes have happened very directly to me, they have directly happened to people that i love so so much. knowing of their pain, causes me pain. it is in those situations where it is so easy to feel helpless which i do. i have learned that one of the things i can do is to pray and to not just pray but to pray with real faith, pure faith. i am grateful to know of the lord's commandments so i can be ready to exercise that faith when the time comes that it is needed. while i cannot ever know of the results of exercising faith in that way, i do know that because the lord is bound when we do what he asks, that he makes things work together for the good of his children...even when those ways and that working together is not at all in the way we hope or anticipate. the lord's ways are just so much greater than our ways. but one thing is for sure...things will work together for our good as we keep on the path that leads back to him.
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